Help! My head's exploding right now!

Everything at school is simply stressful. What now will I do? Is procrastinating the best way to solve these? For now, I guess so. Oh God, I need a one month vacation. Except that I know it would never happen. Why? I just can't quit school. But on the other hand, I could have a lot of rest. I'll just lie on my comfy bed, dreaming. Then, I'll wake up with oh-so delicious food on the table. Next, I'll just watch and watch as many movies I like. After, I'll eat again. Sleep. Watch. Eat. Sleep. Oh, agree with me, it's right.

Except that, I would be really fat. Now, I ask myself, "Again, what shall I do?" The first answer would be, "I don't know." The second answer would be, "There's a way. Always." The third would be asking, "But, how in the world, would there be a way, if you're just sitting there and doing nothing?" The fourth would still be thinking for an answer.

Honestly, I don't know what to write next too. All I have to say is that more burdens are coming. More storms, earthquakes, and tornadoes. What then, what then will I do? Will I sing? Dance? Act? What? Or, could I make a schedule of the things I would do? But, I'm not some student who's organized and all. In fact, I am lazy. Very lazy. I just feel tired of everything. With the quizzes, the mastery tests, the lessons, I just feel that I am carrying a heavy bag of stones. I know, I know that in complaining, nothing happens. I just waste precious time. But, in complaining, I learn a lot of things. I realized that I am such a whiner. I realized that I am lazy. That I am a brat who wants things to be done for her.

Even if I feel tired of everything, I still love life. I try to make the best of it. Even if it means, making an effort. Even if it means, I am lazy to make an effort. I still try to defy my own gravity.

So, I guess I learned a lesson. As I look at my wrist watch, it is now five in the afternoon. A few hours before I am supposed to sleep. What will I do now? The fourth will answer this question. "I'll stand up and will not waste precious time. And I say NO to procrastinating!"

So help me, God.