Let's get this over with

It's 8: 30 in the evening. One night to go before tomorrow. A few hours before the moment I am dreading too much. I can't think of anything worthy to post now. I'm just really nervous for tomorrow. As in, jumpy and panicky and tense and all of the words you can relate with the word nervous. I can already feel a large knot forming inside me. I am sick. So sick.

What if I forget my lines? What if I forget what to do next? What if the judge would hate us, especially me? What if everything goes wrong tomorrow? Oh, this is making me feel much worse. I'm attracting negative energies. Okay, okay. No need to be so paranoid. I am now thinking of good and positive things. Everything would go right. Everything would go according to plan. Besides, we've practiced many times already, so, why in the world, would I worry?

Of course, I have to worry! This thing has been killing me for the past months. It made me exhausted and everything. So, if everything would go wrong, I would be really sad. And don't forget angry.

I can't turn away from this. Not anymore. So, let's get this over with. I know that I'm just wasting time attracting negative energies when I'm supposed to be practicing! Tomorrow, I will do my best and nothing more.

So help me God.